I waited all day for your message but I got nothing. Now I’m gonna sleep again with me trying to stop myself from thinking of you but for all I know I’m still gonna end up thinking of you, dreaming of you and wishing for you. And the first thing I’d do when I wake up? Check if you FINALLY left a message for me. Oh yes, I can’t just give you up. *tears*
I’M SO, SO, SOOOOOOOOOO TORN BETWEEN FIGHTING FOR YOU AND GIVING UP ON YOU.
I just can’t go on like this. Trying to figure out whether that girl is flirting with you and you’re flirting back and do I even have the right to call you on it. But then I’ll just decide not to say anything just not to cause drama and in effect my mind is going crazy making up theories that make me cry. I’m dying out of jealousy here and you don’t have any idea. Guess that’s what you get when you love someone too much without knowing if that person actually loves you back for real.
You know what kills me? I don’t know what I am to you. You tell me you love me, you tell me you miss me, you want to hold me forever etc. etc. when all I want to know is whether you want me to be in your life the same way I want you to be in my life. I’m so tired of analyzing what you tell me and what’s going on between us. I guess what I’m trying to say here is that I want an assurance that I’m yours and you’re mine. You and I, exclusively for each other.